i haven't had the heart lately to blog about japan. just been trying to sort out thoughts and emotions. and writing them down before i forget.

i realise there are two kind of people, or two kinds of relationships. those that skirt around boundaries, defining the boundaries and avoid ever going near. and there are those who see these boundaries, and dare to take the risk, the risk of losing it all, and pushing past those boundaries. the last i've only met a few.. i thought you were one, maybe now it seems like you aren't. shrugs. but me, i like the second type. hahaha. too complicated to explain.

i've not been the kind to run away from difficult situations. but i realise i've been avoiding such situations by being contented with safe emotions and the sort. i convinced myself of alot of things. only to realise now that i've just been hiding in that corner, clinging onto things that will not hurt me. but only those that mean the most, can hurt me the most. the irony. haha.

anyway, went out with cass and rach yesterday (: it was rather wet but it felt so good. haha. the old banter, the understanding without a word, and the unconditional love. haha. i miss my screw.

and then it got really interesting last night, or rather early this morning -.- let's just say it involved rain, vodka (alot of vodka), detol, ribena, cigarettes (glares), a balcony and a hell lot of nonsense. hahaha. it feels so surreal. but i've got a huge bruise on my arm to prove that everything happened -.- all cos i asked someone to pinch me. brilliance. and when my mum praised you to the skies today and used you as an example to lecture me, i just kept quiet. it hurt, but i'd protect you. always.

ooh i love my korean show (: so excuse my hibernation.

: little bird :: annie lennox :